Thanks for the Memories Mr. Nice Guy.. I miss YOU..

     Thanks for all the wonderful memories Mr. Nice Guy! I really enjoyed the feeling of being in love with you. (sigh) haaay.. I am very thankful to God, because He has given me the chance to meet someone like you! You are one of the best things I had in my life. Always remember that you will always have a special place in my heart..  I will always remember you wherever I go. Sorry if I always make you feel bad, and sorry for all the bad words that I said to you.  I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart, and especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know. With you my heart will always stay. You are the one I will always use my wishes on. Thanks for loving me even for a short time. I miss all the happy days with you. I can't thank God enough for all the beautiful days with you..  I know that you are happy wherever you are right now.. I'm happy for you. I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with.  I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life. I keep thinking of how good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I day-dream about you off and on, I've memorized your face & the way that you look at me.. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together & even though nothing will come out of this, I know one thing for sure, for once.. I don't care, I cherish every moment I have with you. I promise I will never forget the day we kissed or the day we met. If the time comes we may not see each other again, even if it takes years, I want you to know that you've been the best part of my life. Time changes. People change, but my heart remains true.. iloveyou.

THANK YOU. I love you so much.. (Hug)

Maybe..

I'm Tired..

I am not upset, hurt or angry anymore.

I'm just tired. I'm tired of putting in more effort than I receive. I'm tired of holding on  for nothing.

I'm tired of believing all your lies. I'm tired of you proving me wrong every time.

I'm tired of getting my hopes up and  being dissapointed again..

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up becuase if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.”  - Marilyn Monroe

The camera makes everyone a tourist in other people’s reality, and eventually in one’s own. :))

The Story Behind My Smile..

I've been broken before, I know what it feels like to see something funny and not laugh

There's only so much heart in a girl to be broken

And if I'm not "the one" don't expect my heart to understand

When your heart gets broken, you tend to see cracks in everything else

I have realized there isn't a limit to how much or how often you can get hurt
I can’t shake these feelings for you, I try so damn hard, but they won’t go away

Just when you thought you'd lost everything, you find out you can lose a little more

do you even realize the sorrow i hide every day of my life? do you know the way it feels when all you have just dies? i try and try to deny that i need you, but you still remain on my mind
its hard to find the good in someone when you have already found the best in someone else

I can't talk to you now, because when I talk to you I think about you, and when I think about you I miss you, and when I miss you my heart breaks, my soul cries, and there is nothing I can do except talk to you

Maybe that's why we hold on as hard as we do, we just can't believe such a miracle can happen to us twice...but it can, someday you'll find it again

It's almost three a.m. and I should be asleep but instead I lie awake in my room my head still hurts from the night before last, my only solace is thinking of you, let me dream, give me peace, let me fall fast asleep, coz I swear there will be time for you tomorrow.

There's a good side to getting hurt a lot...after a while it just doesn't bother you as much.

So this is my new found freedom, it's funny, I don't remember being chained.

I built my world inside a bubble away from the poison of your lips. I let you inside and watched you slowly crumble my existence

I now compare all guys I like to you and you know what, they never measure up, not even close, and the sad thing is most are better than you.. I just can't see it

They press their lips against you, and you love the lies they say.

Don't allow someone to be your everything while allowing yourself to be their option.

You were my happiness and now you are the obstacle in front of it.

What's good in searching if nothing's left to find.

My soul is empty now; it's a dark abyss. No heart, no feeling, no light. You ask me, "How did you become so cold?" I answered, "I loved you."

dont be fooled by her pretty smile, inside she's breaking, she's so fragile

how can you hide from what never goes away?

No reason to stay is a good reason to go

sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings.
sometimes its easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so i dont let them get too close. sometimes im scared. but when i act numb towards you, it doesnt mean i dont care. it means i care too much.

once i ran to you, now i run from you, i wanna do to you exactly what you did to me. lead you on, make you fall for me, and then let go... effortlessly

i feel like I'm just in the way, but it's your fault I'm there

Everything is fine. Couldn't hurt more

You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other until it makes you quiver, but you will never be friends

I always thought it was dumb for him to pick me in the first place. I'm not special, I never was, never will be. He just made me believe I was and broke my heart when he finally realized I wasn't

You never know just what you have until you get it yanked out of your chest.

I don't want to talk anymore, I'm afraid of what I might say... I bite my tongue every time you come around..

Want my advice? Stay mad as long as you can 'cause once you stop, it hurts like hell.

Drugged by your presence she stares; scared by your absence she waits; made sick by your world she screams

You say that love is nonsense....I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like a toothache , not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.

Turn around, walk away, make it easier, no one's forcing you to stay, make it easier, you stole my past i want it back, don't let the door hit your *beep*, i hope she makes you cry, screw hello, you had me at goodbye

The wrong ones can't hurt you, it's the right ones that can … they can kill you.

So tell me the truth. Does it ever get better? Or is this what I have to look forward to? Tonight ill stand in the light so you can count how many tears fall from my eyes. this time ill be alright. my heart cant get any worst..

On Love..

The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster, and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh and cry. The strange thing about love is that it’s uneven: in this life you may be loved by someone you don’t love back, and you may love someone who doesn’t return your love.


The strange thing about love is that it’s always worth it, and the strange thing about love is that it’s always there somewhere in your life. The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true, and the strange thing about love is that, even if it’s a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.


Love is a strange thing, isn’t it? but trust in it.. and you will be alright :))

Art of Letting Go..

It is sad to let go of a person, especially if you love that person, and somehow in your heart, you know that person loves you, too. But sometimes, letting go of someone is the highest act of love one can possibly give, especially when we know that letting go is needed for the good of those we love. Much as we want it, we cannot always grow together. Putting time and effort into someone and then to see it all fall part is the primary explanation of why some people have such a difficult time letting go.

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, fly! Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of those is where you will build your rest and start over again. It’s never too late. Remember that you may find love and lose it, but “WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT.”


With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be unselfish and give more than we can. And when everything doesn’t end well, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that “LIFE DOESN’T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN.”


There is no future in a relationship of lies and selfishness. It’s true, there’s life in love. Make a choice not based on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that “HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE.”


You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you have to learn is to ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. You would be better off giving that love and dedication to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life; let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that when you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.


“IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT THE TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT WITH YOU. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU.” It’s true that love can wait forever, but it is crazy to stubbornly hope for someone who doesn’t even care or understand how you feel. Don’t waste your time waiting for someone who never really cared about how you would have felt. Open you heart again and give yourself the chance to find the man who would make loving worth the pain and sacrifice.



GOD wakes up in the middle of a storm to teach us a lesson. He takes away the people we love, so we can learn to value love itself. He makes us cry so hard so we can see clearly when we open our eyes. He makes us bitter so we can realize that there is no genuine happiness if we only think of our needs and not of others. “GOD ALLOWS US TO EXPERIENCE THE PAIN TO MAKE US STRONGER AND BETTER PERSONS. HE WILL SEE US THROUGH THE MOST TRYING AND DIFFICULT TIMES IN OUR LIVES AND ONLY IF WE PUT OUR TRUST IN HIM WE CAN LEARN TO FIND JOY IN OUR HEARTS AND HAPPINESS IN OUR SORROWS.”

Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated to us. It is a resolve that we make ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadows, there will always be light after darkness and lonely moments. There is always hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try. “LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME.”