The Story Behind My Smile..

I've been broken before, I know what it feels like to see something funny and not laugh

There's only so much heart in a girl to be broken

And if I'm not "the one" don't expect my heart to understand

When your heart gets broken, you tend to see cracks in everything else

I have realized there isn't a limit to how much or how often you can get hurt
I can’t shake these feelings for you, I try so damn hard, but they won’t go away

Just when you thought you'd lost everything, you find out you can lose a little more

do you even realize the sorrow i hide every day of my life? do you know the way it feels when all you have just dies? i try and try to deny that i need you, but you still remain on my mind
its hard to find the good in someone when you have already found the best in someone else

I can't talk to you now, because when I talk to you I think about you, and when I think about you I miss you, and when I miss you my heart breaks, my soul cries, and there is nothing I can do except talk to you

Maybe that's why we hold on as hard as we do, we just can't believe such a miracle can happen to us twice...but it can, someday you'll find it again

It's almost three a.m. and I should be asleep but instead I lie awake in my room my head still hurts from the night before last, my only solace is thinking of you, let me dream, give me peace, let me fall fast asleep, coz I swear there will be time for you tomorrow.

There's a good side to getting hurt a lot...after a while it just doesn't bother you as much.

So this is my new found freedom, it's funny, I don't remember being chained.

I built my world inside a bubble away from the poison of your lips. I let you inside and watched you slowly crumble my existence

I now compare all guys I like to you and you know what, they never measure up, not even close, and the sad thing is most are better than you.. I just can't see it

They press their lips against you, and you love the lies they say.

Don't allow someone to be your everything while allowing yourself to be their option.

You were my happiness and now you are the obstacle in front of it.

What's good in searching if nothing's left to find.

My soul is empty now; it's a dark abyss. No heart, no feeling, no light. You ask me, "How did you become so cold?" I answered, "I loved you."

dont be fooled by her pretty smile, inside she's breaking, she's so fragile

how can you hide from what never goes away?

No reason to stay is a good reason to go

sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings.
sometimes its easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so i dont let them get too close. sometimes im scared. but when i act numb towards you, it doesnt mean i dont care. it means i care too much.

once i ran to you, now i run from you, i wanna do to you exactly what you did to me. lead you on, make you fall for me, and then let go... effortlessly

i feel like I'm just in the way, but it's your fault I'm there

Everything is fine. Couldn't hurt more

You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other until it makes you quiver, but you will never be friends

I always thought it was dumb for him to pick me in the first place. I'm not special, I never was, never will be. He just made me believe I was and broke my heart when he finally realized I wasn't

You never know just what you have until you get it yanked out of your chest.

I don't want to talk anymore, I'm afraid of what I might say... I bite my tongue every time you come around..

Want my advice? Stay mad as long as you can 'cause once you stop, it hurts like hell.

Drugged by your presence she stares; scared by your absence she waits; made sick by your world she screams

You say that love is nonsense....I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like a toothache , not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.

Turn around, walk away, make it easier, no one's forcing you to stay, make it easier, you stole my past i want it back, don't let the door hit your *beep*, i hope she makes you cry, screw hello, you had me at goodbye

The wrong ones can't hurt you, it's the right ones that can … they can kill you.

So tell me the truth. Does it ever get better? Or is this what I have to look forward to? Tonight ill stand in the light so you can count how many tears fall from my eyes. this time ill be alright. my heart cant get any worst..